I've been reading this book about loss and it suggests that in order to heal you have to grieve and you have to understand what you've lost. It's not enough to see this as losing my husband but what else have I lost by losing him. Well I started to think about that and here are just a few things.... I lost my best friend, my lover, my encourager, my best fan, my romanticist, my retirement plans, my future plans, my travel buddy, my dance partner, my mate, my daughter's father, my protector, my daughter's protector, our provider, our Sensei, my other half, my teddy bear, my sounding board, my masseuse, my sanitation man, my tree pruner, my mechanic, my dog walker, my daughter's driving instructor, my muscle man, my handsome hubby, my good smelling honey, my favorite person, my prayer partner, my love, my heart, and to use a secular term, my soulmate because we had truly become one in every way, physically, spiritually and emotionally. So I've lost a lot and I've only named a few things. I'm sure I'll keep adding to this list as I think of other things.
i realized today that crying is actually a sign of healing and strengthening. if you see me crying, don't feel bad for me just know that God's letting me see what I've lost, what I've loved, so that he can continue to walk me over the bridge of healing. I thank the Lord that I had the priveledge of loving my husband and being loved by him.
My prayer is that as people read these blogs that they would think of my situation and come to a place where they truly love their spouses and not take them for granted. My Pastor preached this weekend about the sanctity of marriage and I just pray that through my situation others would truly treasure their spouses. I look back now at some of the little things my husband did and I realize now how he did so many little romantic, thoughtful things. Boy do I miss those things.
Father God, I pray a spirit of unity over every marriage that visits this site. I pray Father God that what you have placed together no man put asunder. I pray Lord that men would love their wives as Jesus loves the church and that women would truly, truly respect their husband and realize that God placed them here to be a helpmate - helper for their husbands. I pray that every marriage that visits this site will have a marriage filled with God's love, God's unity and that the two truly become one in spirit in Jesus name.
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Eddie
8/6/2008 08:30:33 am
Absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing this sister...it means a lot.
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