Today I spent some time cleaning out the guest room. To my surprise I found copies of the letters I wrote to my church and friends who were praying for us during Frank's last stay in the hospital. I wrote a letter every day while he was in the hospital and I ended with day 10. Frank lasted 10 days when the doctor's didn't even think he would last the weekend. I'm very big on numbers and their meanings so I looked up the number 10 today and I learned that the number 10 actually means "completeness in a divine order". Well mind you, when I looked this up 2 years ago I was given a definition of "testimony; law and responsibility". I researched this in several places today and was given the same answer - completeness in divine order. So my honey bun may have left this world but it was God's complete and divine order and for that I'm blessed.
It is interesting that about two days before Frank passed I wrote about a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and feeling like God was telling me it was time to let him go. Amazing how we have strength to hold on even when we know we should let go. So reading these letters today did bring tears to my eyes but it also brought joy. How can something so painful bring joy. Well it's joy from seeing how God is so amazing and how he pulls us through even the most difficult circumstances, the most difficult times of our lives. I can't imagine where I would be without Jesus in my life and I'm so grateful to have such an awesome relationship with Jesus.
Thank you Lord that you never leave us nor forsake us.
It is interesting that about two days before Frank passed I wrote about a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and feeling like God was telling me it was time to let him go. Amazing how we have strength to hold on even when we know we should let go. So reading these letters today did bring tears to my eyes but it also brought joy. How can something so painful bring joy. Well it's joy from seeing how God is so amazing and how he pulls us through even the most difficult circumstances, the most difficult times of our lives. I can't imagine where I would be without Jesus in my life and I'm so grateful to have such an awesome relationship with Jesus.
Thank you Lord that you never leave us nor forsake us.