Well this is probably the longest it has been since I've written in my blog. My life lately has just been a time of uncertainty, a time of change and God is just showing me to trust in Him. I don't like uncertainty so this is hard but I have no choice but to trust God. He has never let me down and it's just not in His DNA to do so but yet I have to keep reminding myself of that every day. Why, why do I have to remind myself of that when I've experienced his provision, his love, his comfort, his miracles. I guess it's the flesh in me that sometimes takes all the pressures onto myself instead of just leaving them at the cross. I know that I know that God is doing a new thing and I look forward to what he has planned. He is doing a new thing in me emotionally, spiritually, work wise as well as family wise. So we will see.
I think he is also preparing me to be open minded to having a man in my life again. Don't get me wrong, I'm not ready right now but I believe he's preparing me. I don't know when that will happen but where as before I couldn't picture being with someone, I've gotten to the point that being alone is just not something I could see myself doing forever anymore. Being alone is pretty lonely. I have found myself lately really missing having a man in my life. Missing having someone to talk to, to lean on, to laugh with, to hug, to share. It's been a year and 8 months since my honey passed away and he was and always will be that "special one". But we'll see, I'm open to whatever God wants to do and I know that he will prepare me for everything. I know that when he does bring someone into my life, that man is going to be hand picked just for me cause my latter years will be better.
I'm looking for new things in 2010 and I'm looking for 2010 to be the beginning of the latter being better.
Thank you Lord.
I think he is also preparing me to be open minded to having a man in my life again. Don't get me wrong, I'm not ready right now but I believe he's preparing me. I don't know when that will happen but where as before I couldn't picture being with someone, I've gotten to the point that being alone is just not something I could see myself doing forever anymore. Being alone is pretty lonely. I have found myself lately really missing having a man in my life. Missing having someone to talk to, to lean on, to laugh with, to hug, to share. It's been a year and 8 months since my honey passed away and he was and always will be that "special one". But we'll see, I'm open to whatever God wants to do and I know that he will prepare me for everything. I know that when he does bring someone into my life, that man is going to be hand picked just for me cause my latter years will be better.
I'm looking for new things in 2010 and I'm looking for 2010 to be the beginning of the latter being better.
Thank you Lord.