I just read a comment from dear friends of mine Sharon and Charles. They said joy comes from the "mourning". How illogical that sounds but how true it is. When I think back of all the trials in my life there were times of great mourning but that mourning made the victory even sweeter.
I look at my situation now and I see that I'm in a season, once again, of great trevail but I know that I know I will prevail. Actually every day I prevail as the Lord continues to wake me up, give me strength to carry on and use me with others. However, I know the day will come when God is going to catapult me to something totally new, something that will cause me to look back not with sorrow but with joy that through the pain God brought some gain not just for me but for many. I could spend my time feeling sorry for myself and say this is not fair, I could get bitter or I could just keep looking up to where my help comes from and say Lord, I may not understand it now but I know that you have a plan for Frank's death did not surprise you. I just have to keep walking and saying, Lord not my will but your will be done. Sure some days are harder than others and if I stop and dwell on the entire situation such as, how am I going to do this everyday by myself (no more Frank's help around the house, watching and guiding Nikki, finanical support), what am I going to do when Nikki leaves for school, what will I do with my future, what about my retirement years, my traveling partner....etc.) dwelling on all of that can be overwhelming and depressing. So everyday I learn to take it one day at a time and trust in God because He has a plan and He is watching over every step I take. I can't go wrong if I just trust in Him. My friend Pat Montalbano said this week that she reads my blog and then knows how to pray for me. That's awesome. If anyone wants to know how to pray for me right now, just pray that I keep trusting God and that through this both Nikki and I learn to trust God more and grow closer to Him and each other every day. Thanks.
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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