For several days now I kept hearing in my spirit the scripture about the dead burying the dead. I finally decided to heed to the leading of the Holy Spirit and look up the scripture. In Luke 9:59-60 it states "Jesus said to another man, "Follow me." But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father." Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God." In the Message version it's pretty forceful, it states - "First things first. Your business is life, not death. And life is urgent: Announce God's kingdom!" Wow, so I sit here and here that God is saying to me with an urgency, I have a work to do in proclaiming God's kingdom and I can't do it if I allow myself to get stuck in my grief, in my pain. No God is not saying that I can't grieve, I have felt His presence with me so much during my grieving. I believe He is holding me through the grieving but also urging me to move forward to do the work He has called me to do. In Deuteronomy 32:10-12 it states "In a desert land he found him, in a barren and howling waste, He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye, like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions. The Lord alone led him;no foreign god was with him." I'm in that desert place and the Lord has shielded me, cared for me, guarded me and has hovered over me, and has spread his wings over me. But just like with the eagletes, there comes the time where they must leave the nest. I recently read the following, " When a baby eagle fledges (loses its fluffy baby down and grows flying feathers) a parent will hover over the nest and flap its wings. As the fledgling stretches for food, it mimics the parents and flaps its newly feathered wings. The subsequent wind that the parent makes, will cause the baby to rise slightly above the nest as the baby is also flapping its own wings." This is how the parents of the baby eagles teach and urge them to start flying, to get out of the nest, out of the comfort zone.
In versses from 51-62 Jesus is teaching about the cost to follow Him - it truly takes obedience and total obedience takes dying to self. In verse 51 it states "As the time approached for him to be taken to heaven, Jesus resolutely set out for Jerusalem". The word resolutely means with an unwavering determination. Jesus knew he was going to be crucified and yet did not waver - he continued doing what He was sent here to do. That's a lesson for me and for you. How many times do we put off doing something we know God wants us to do because it's too hard, it'll mean having to give up so much, don't have the time, too busy, don't have the funds etc. Jesus was basically saying to these men, today is the day for you to follow me and proclaim the Kingdom of God. Why, because in the grand scheme of things nothing else matters. When I think of how busy we've allowed the enemy to make us that we barely give much time to spending time with Jesus. As I sit here typing and thinking what do I do with the 16 or so hours a day that I'm awake and what percentage of that time do I spend in prayer, in true intimacy with the Lord it just grieves me. God is telling me, it's time because like the eagle he's pushing me out there to get my own food, (the word) more of it and move beyond my grief because there is a work to do and sitting here getting lost in TV etc., because I miss my husband so much is not allowing me to do the work the Lord has for me. I have to constantly remind myself that Frank is in the best place of all, with God and if he could talk to me he would say, "honey bun, it's beautiful and I'm so, so happy so go out there and get them honey".
Father God, I know that we truly are in the last days and I ask you Lord to help me and all who read this blog realize that there is an urgency to your call for us to move forward to prepare the way because you do not want one to perish. So Father God I ask that you help me, help us to heed to your call, that we die to self as you did for us, that we see through your eyes, feel through your heart so that we can put all our effort into proclaiming your word in Jesus name.
Happy first birthday in heaven with Jesus Frank.
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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