Tomorrow will be 8 years since my husband passed and I wonder, will I ever wake up on April 6 and not hurt.
I smile, I laugh, I thank God for the wonderful new husband God has blessed me with, but deep down inside my heart is screaming and I still cry. In my mind I keep living it over again, and it hurts so, so much. I just want to remember and celebrate his life but my heart aches as I am taken back to the days 8 years ago that led to my life and my daughter's life changing forever. Oh my Lord, help me and help my daughter get through this time period yet again. To many, it's just another day but for us, our life was turned upside down on April 6, 2008. Yes, I have remarried, some people call that "moving on" and I'm happy with my life now but the truth is that you never quite "move on". You learn to adjust to your new life, you learn to be happy though a huge part of your life is missing but moving on is another story. You are able to move on but when it comes to that day that your life changed forever, well, the moving on is just like the "wallpaper" that's covering your pain. I still miss my husband so, so much. Happy with my new life but I feel like I still walk around with a huge hole in my heart. I know I'll get through this after tomorrow when marks the day he was taken from me 8 years ago. In the meantime, I sit here remembering and holding on to our last moments together because true love never dies.
I smile, I laugh, I thank God for the wonderful new husband God has blessed me with, but deep down inside my heart is screaming and I still cry. In my mind I keep living it over again, and it hurts so, so much. I just want to remember and celebrate his life but my heart aches as I am taken back to the days 8 years ago that led to my life and my daughter's life changing forever. Oh my Lord, help me and help my daughter get through this time period yet again. To many, it's just another day but for us, our life was turned upside down on April 6, 2008. Yes, I have remarried, some people call that "moving on" and I'm happy with my life now but the truth is that you never quite "move on". You learn to adjust to your new life, you learn to be happy though a huge part of your life is missing but moving on is another story. You are able to move on but when it comes to that day that your life changed forever, well, the moving on is just like the "wallpaper" that's covering your pain. I still miss my husband so, so much. Happy with my new life but I feel like I still walk around with a huge hole in my heart. I know I'll get through this after tomorrow when marks the day he was taken from me 8 years ago. In the meantime, I sit here remembering and holding on to our last moments together because true love never dies.