Every year I'm very involved with the coordination of our Applefest activities for our church. This was the first year of Applefest without Frank around. It was a rough morning as I really was just tired and somewhat emotional. While preparing for Applefest an old friend from our church who had moved overseas stopped by with her husband to say hello. She asked me how Frank was doing and oh how much that hurt to tell her Frank had died. It hurt for me because that was the first time that happened to me but it hurt me for her too because she truly felt so, so bad and was so, so sad. We just held each other and cried. I thought to myself, okay Lord this is the start of the day so what do you have planned.
Well as only God can do things the day was perfect. We had big crowds of people being blessed by the music and the SOW Dance Ministry. We planted seeds in Jesus name. I was led to minister in dance to the song you Raise Me Up. It's a song that I hold near and dear to my heart for a couple of reasons - 1) It's a song we played in Franks hospital room and I would sing it to him and tell him hon listen to the words. 2) It's a song I can truly relate to because it's truly only Him that has kept me all this time and has raised me up when I felt I couldn't get up on my own. As I ministered in dance I truly felt that I was dancing on eagles wings as I was lost in the spirit. What a beautiful place to be - lost in the spirit. Amazingly during the dance I heard no festival noise at all, all I heard was the lyrics to the song and I felt like God was truly there looking down at me and smiling. Suddenly the sun came out from behind the clouds and shined upon the corner where I was dancing and I had to hold myself back from crying. I know that I know that was a gift from God saying, well done my good and faithful servant. But I also know that was God's way of giving me a smile from Frank. Why do I say that, well because shortly after Frank died I had two other similar experiences when I was just crying out to God about missing my husband and suddenly in the midst of a cloud day the sun came out right above me. If this is possible I could see Frank saying to the Lord, give her a strong ray of sunshine right now, she'll know Lord it's a message of my love too. It's those special moments I hold on to where once again the Lord raises me up. Today makes 6 months since my hubby died and I miss him so much but I thank God for those little gifts, for the rays of God's love and Frank's love coming down on me just when I need it the most. The Lord truly, truly does raise me up.....
Psalm 40:1-2 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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