Slowly he's been having me put things behind me. He started with having me remove my wedding bands, changing my signature on my e-mails at work to Villamar versus Nunez and some other little things he's been doing. Well today I hear him saying that for now I will not be writing in this blog but instead starting a new blog. The new blog will be of my new beginnings. I don't know but sometimes it seems like God works slowly and yet sometimes it seems like He's moving too fast for me such as in this case. However, who am I?? I will go with His flow and know that in doing so I'm in the best place.
For those of you reading who are widows/widowers reading this website please understand this does not mean that I'm done grieving or that I don't still struggle with the loss of my husband. Far from it. However, it does mean that what I've learned is that the more I rely on God, the less I rely on me. It takes the pressure off me and puts it on God :) I will continue to always love my husband. Nothing will ever change that fact. Even if God brought another man into my life, I will still love my husband but that other man will fill another void and will have another place in my heart. Just as Jesus has enough love to give to all of us, He prepares us to love even in the midst of our loss. If you are a widow/widower and wish to reach out to me, you can do so at anytime at [email protected] . If you e-mail me there, please make sure you put widow or widower in the subject line since I tend to get lots of SPAM mail.
Well I embark on this next journey of new beginnings and wait expectantly for what God has planned for me.
Oh, yes I'll put up one more post with the address of my new blog.
Love you all and thanks for being there for me. I could not have done any of this without you.