This weekend has been one of the hardest for me since Frank passed. I don't know if it's because August is coming which would have been 5 years since Frank returned home. I don't know if it's that I feel overwhelmed because of everything I'm dealing with right now (work done in the yard, working with a financial advisor, dog being sick). I just know that I have such a heartache that it takes everything within me to keep myself going and not just spend my days crying my heart out. I think the fact that Nikki is always on the run with her friends brings my loneliness to the forefront as sometimes I feel like I lost my husband and I'm losing the semblance of family too. She's doing what teenagers like to do, hang out together which leaves me basically alone. Yes I know that God has a plan and that He's in control and that I'll be fine but right now I just feel so, so alone and I don't like it at all. I pray that God can just comfort me and take away this pain, this loneliness and help me to see the next step of his plan for my life. I know that I can't lean on my own understandings but I must trust in Him and I do but IT STILL HURTS!!! Help me Lord, please help me. Help me to look forward and not back, help me to seek out your plan for my life and use me Lord, use me, use me to bring you glory. I know that as you use me Lord, the focus will go from the pain to your plan so use me Lord.
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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