Every day I wake up and I think, "okay Lord, what will today bring". I pray that it will be a good day for both Nikki and I. Some days I do pretty good and there are those days that I wish I could just hide under my covers and escape from the world. Clearly I don't know what awaits me every day, what awaits me tomorrow but there is ont thing I do know, God has me in the palm of His hand. I've had my moments where I think of what about tomorrow because I never planned to be alone. Frank and I had planned a future together, our retirement together so now what. Honestly walking on this new journey without and directional signs is sometimes not easy but it all comes down to trust. I trust my Lord and know that it's going to be okay because He's with me.
In an earlier post I mentioned how I needed to let go of the fact that I didn't give Frank that last kiss as he took his last breath. Wow, amazing how we can beat ourselves up for things unnecessarily. I mean here it is God gave me an extra week with my husband, he brought him out of the coma so that we could tell each other how much we love each other and yet I'm beating myself up because I ddin't kiss him when he took his last breath. Smack me. But you know, God is awesome. Many of you know the Lord speaks to me in dreams and visions. Well when I was struggling with the fact that I did not give Frank that last kiss when he took his last breath, the Lord showed me a beautiful vision. I can't even bring it justice describing it but it was truly lovely and consoling. In the vision I saw myself in the hospital with Frank, sitting next to his bed and I saw angels by each side of Frank as they raised him up above me towards the ceiling to the bottom end of the bed I saw a dark figure what I believe was the spirit of death but he could not touch my hubby. The angels took him up and as they were raising him up I saw him looking down at me and throwing me a kiss. How awesome is my God to love me that much to show me that vision. Another sacred moment of grace.........
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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