Today was another rough day. Actually the past few days have been hard. I miss my husband terribly. I've been asking the Lord to please let me at least have a dream with Frank, a glimpse of him in heaven. Well today I finally had a dream with him. In the dream he was with a young little boy. They barged into our bedroom and said as only Frank could say it "Hi Mommy". In the background I saw a best friend of mine who passed away many years ago. She too was a Christian. I woke up smiling and said, Lord my honey is with his son. Frank had a son in a previous marriage that died weeks after being born. God has united them. They both looked so, so happy.
Today Frank's family came by and it was so different without having Frank around. It just seems so empty without him. I started to give them some of his clothes. I thought I was ready to do that but when I started to give them his cologne (Frank was big on cologne) I suddenly wanted to scream as I thought oh now his scent will be gone. I think I still have one of his cologne's and if I don't I'll have to go and buy one because I'm just not ready to lose his scent. That may sound nuts to some but those are the kinds of things you do when you lose a spouse. I sleep with his night shirt that still has his scent. I then gave his family his sneakers but as I picked up the sneakers that he used when going to the hospital I could not part with them. I just cried as I held them. His cousin cried too. It was wonderful seeing them and they will always be part of my family but it was also hard to see them.
Overall I'm doing well but let me tell you I hurt big time. If it were not for my God and having my daughter I would not be able to do this. When people ask how I'm doing, it's kind of strange because yes I'm doing well overall but if I were to really tell them how I'm doing, I would just cry.
Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial. James 1:12
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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