I noticed today that it's been about a week since I've cried. I believe it's because of the prayers of those who read my last post saying I sometimes feel like I'm going to lose it. It seems since then I've been okay so thanks for praying.
This was an interesting week as Nikki spent 3 days at Cornell University for a Vet. Science Program. I missed her greatly and she missed me. Amazing how much we look out for each other. However, I have to sometimes put my foot down because my daughter tends to feel bad if she leaves me alone. For example today I knew she really wanted to hang out with her friends and see the fireworks but she kept insisting she stay with me because she didn't want to leave me alone. Well that's sweet but she can't stop being a teenager because my husband has passed. It took a while but I finally convinced her I had a ton to do and was fine staying home. So here I am, home alone. I've come to accept that this is my life for now and it's something I need to get use to. Nikki will be 16 in a few months then there'll be driving and before you know it she'll be driving herself everywhere so I really have come to accept that this is my new life for now. I may not like it but it is what it is. I know at some point God is going to use this time alone to start doing something to bring Him glory so I wait in anticipation.
I really feel like God has me in the palm of His hands. He is taking care of Nikki too. God is so good.
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AuthorI'm Dee, wife of the late Frank Nunez. I'm a woman of God who's depending on God to pull us through this loss. Archives
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